The forums usually have very concrete questions and answers, so I thought that I would throw out a more abstract discussion that I have not seen posted anywhere........
Since Matthew is at school today, I have a bit of time to post a question that has been absolutely driving me to insanity for the last two years. Since this is a large forum of parents with children who have cancer, I figured, it's a good place to get a lot of opinions. Every breathing moment, consciously and subconsciously, I ask myself, how did my child develop this horrible disease (in my sons's case - t-cell ALL) What happened to the perfect system of cells that all of a sudden decided to go and get so confused and screwed up???? I have researched theories, yet none seem to give me answers to my questions, as every child's case is different. Yet it is shown that , for example, ALL has its highest incidence in 3-5 year old BOYS - Why? Next time you go to your clinics, take a look around and notice the amount of small boys, it's incredible.
Since I have six other children who are perfectly healthy, I often analyse what was done differently about the last one. The only varying factors are that he may have been exposed to more EMF due to a damn portable phone I had close to his crib (which is now in the garbage); a new plastic crib mattress (which really smelled awful of plastic - we all know how bad plastics are); his toddler bed used to back onto a wall which contained a 240volt dryer plug (?- more EMF) and he was the only one of my kids who had a second ultrasound (which I know that more and more mothers are being told to get while pregnant). The last factor which I also wonder about is that a few weeks before he was conceived, my husband was spraying some fruit trees with regular insecticides - which we don't routinely use - and during this application, the pump he was using broke, leaving him with a pretty good mist of poisons blowing up in his face, which bothered his lungs for the next few months. Other than the above, I can think of nothing else as all the other known factors which may/may not influence the incidences of cancer had already been addressed, i.e. breastfeeding, excellent diet, no vaccinations, no other meds, no electrial tower, cell phone waves, microwaves, etc., no use of harsh household chemicals, no wireless applications in the home whatsoever, etc.,..............or is this all just a random event which occurred with all of our kids?????? And the funny thing to me is that no one at the hospital really seems to care how it comes about as we are never asked any questions about lifestyle, diet, environment, etc. after our kids get diagnosed....
Anyone else wonder ????Can we prevent it from coming back??????Or do we just wait out the rest of our lives simply day by day????The fear of the unknown is a terrible way to live.......especially when it comes to our children........
Any thoughts, or should I just stop wondering ???
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