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Does anyone else ever feel like cancer is in every thought they have? Besides noticing the word so much more in TV and books, every symptom I have physically makes me think I have cancer too. I guess with my son being diagnosis, I am aware of my own mortality. Plus, we just seem to hear about other cancers so much more lately...or I am just hyper-aware of this horrible disease?
I think once it hits you once to someone close it changes you forever. When I was a kid my dad kept complaining about headaches and vision problems and it was getting worse and worse. I remember fearing he had a brain tumor. And he did. He lost his battle within months and then my stepbrother lost his life to a sarcoma tumor a couple of years later.
So when Josef was having fevers and they kept doing blood counts I started thinking leukemia probably weeks before he was diagnosed. For my wife it did not hit her until they sat us down in a conference room. I was already convinced as I had heard too many code words from nurses etc. plus I guess due to my sense that yes it can happen.
Just lost my stepdad on Christmas Eve to pancreatic cancer. So yeah........cancer is everywhere and is a bad thing and comes in many forms. But thankfully most families are not as affected as mine has been. However, I am sure many many of the people on this board have lost a close relative to cancer.
But I have to keep my son.
Jon
Oh yes. If I feel bloated and there is no obvious cause (food or hormones), I think ovarian cancer. I discovered a lump on a rib - that was bone cancer until I learned there were lymph nodes, then I was thinking lymphoma ... I did have that checked and the doctor said its just bone where my sternum meets the rib. Anyway, yes, that's where my thoughts go. :(
Me too, when ever I don't feel well I tell myself I have cancer. It could be a cold for god sakes and I have lung cancer or sinus caner (if that even exists)! I think a lot of us parents think this way, its just the fear speaking! I think it's normal!
