Hello MH,
I am really sorry to hear about your dads passing. I haven't been on here for ages since mum passed away Sept 11th. I'm not sure if you read my post or not.
I'm still struggling to come to terms with it and everyday without fail,, my memory takes me back to the time mum was in the hospice. She really sufftered and it was an awful way to go.
I was there when she passed away and I will never, ever forget it. It was the most awful thing I've ever had to deal with. Reading your post made my heart sink, I feel so sad for you.
Mums birthday was Sept 9th and it was as though she hung on for that day cos her brothers, sisters and me and my brothers, and dad saw her. She was quite chatty but worn out.
That day my brother and sister in law were reading their cards out to her, and they had named a star after her. She was even struggling to cry, just little sobs came out. Thats something I can't forget too. It was awful that my mum knew she was going to go soon. She was very brave. But she had., had enough of this disease. She would have wanted to live if she could have managed with it, but after relapsing, she felt worse than ever, and all she felt was depressed, tearful, and very down.
The sweats were terrible for her, the shingles, the prolapse etc etc. Too many problems on top of the AML.
My dad is coping, but somedays, not too well. I seem him as often as I can. He keeps giving me mums Jewellery and bits and bats. I am going to a psychic evening tonight at someones house, so I am hoping mum will send me some messages.
Please email me privately anytime my love. I know exactly how you feel and somedays, can't quite believe mum has gone.
Love Belinda xx
