That was great Othniel..  I can totally relate to some of your poem.  Thanks for sharing!  My poetry is not that well written, however, I thought I would share still!  Here are 2 pieces I wrote on mom's 1 month aniversary, Oct. 18.   I just shared it with my husband for the first time and he bawled like a baby:)  Oh Mama, I miss you!!!!!!!!

hugs, nicole

Home

You are now home mama
no more pain and no more sorrow
you are now home mama
no more tears to dry

You are always with me mama
your smile and your embrace
you are right here mama
in everything I do and breath I take

Oh sweet Mama
how wondeful you are
the joy you brought to our lives
and forever more

You touch the hearts of thousands
you embraced every heart
never letting out
the pain you felt

The way you gently went to sleep
your heart didn't need to beat
you were finally in His arms
you were free, you were Born

Loving You!

I woke up and cried today
as I breath I feel the pain
each heart beat
reminds me of the life you gave me

I imagine you not in the clouds
but in a field of grass and hay
you are barefoot and smiling
wishing you could have stayed someway

For I know you loved me
You taught me that life is precious
you gave me hope and strength
to get through the darkest days

When a cloudy day would come
you would wipe my tears and
tell me it would be alright
you were there each step I made

You are dancing with the Angels
meeting new friends and others
like grandpa and your daddy
talking about the old days

I loved the smell of the coffee
as you stood in the kitchen and grinned
you were there pouring each  cup
waiting for us to wake up

I imagine now today
you are there with Jesus
telling him of the good life you lived
and how you can't wait to see us

As we move through this life
it will never be the same
without our mama
to guide us the way

But the one thing you should know
is with your heart, faith, and soul
you lit us a path
that is so easy to take

You knew there would be mountains
you prepared for the waves
and not even the Dr. could save you
those days

As you reached out to the preacher
and listened to his voice
you knew soon
your time with Him was near

You bowed your head
you gave all your strength
to let us know you heard us
and were willing to Walk with Him

No day will be brighter
than the days that we loved
For you were my first and only
^^Angel^^

Othniel and Nicole - both of your poems are heartfelt and brought a tear to my eye. I wish I could express myself in poetry like that. It is truly a gift. I wish you both peace and healing.

Leslie

p.s. Nicole - you can post on both Grief and BMT boards - no need to choose just one!  I feel kind of more comfortable here posting about grief and sadness. I don't always feel comfortable discussing the loss of my dad on the BMT board - it might be a real downer for some people who are coping with treatment.