busymom wrote:
Am I alone in having those feelings about getting in to see the doctor?
Nope. But if you're planning on being a long-term survivor, you'd better get used to it.
I wrote a thread about this not too long ago. I waltz in, sit in the waiting room, wait to do my labs, etc. with my full head of hair, my somewhat normal weight, muscle mass, healthy glow and every confidence that I remain cancer free. I spend a maximum of 10 minutes with my doc and take off.
And I do this all in front of a group of emaciated, bald people worried not only about their long-term future but tomorrow.. I know that when my doc's late it's because the person he's seeing is doing poorly. Or the person before that or before that. And there's a likely possibility that the next person he's going to see is in bad shape, as well.
I feel awkward about it. I feel like I'm taking up time my doc could be dealing with someone who needs him. But that's the rub. I need him, too. I need to keep an eye on things and make sure there's no relapse headed my way. I need to know what my counts are. I need to pay attention to my body because my SCT has long-term affects on my health and well being.
Yeah, I'm doing okay. But I was once one of those people in the room who was bald and emaciated. I was doing poorly. I fought like a demon to get where I am just like those people are fighting today. I'm not going to blow it. If my doc didn't have time to see me, he'd let me know. If there's a need to see someone STAT, my doc's have never been shy to call and reschedule.
You need your doctor now. You go to that appointment tomorrow. You hear me?
Blessings
